Catchup! Har!

It's been a crazy month at Hvn's Haven but things are heading in a really good direction right now.  I made a few stupendously stupid mistakes and thankfully no long-term harm has come of it - I got involved with someone so far removed from my own lifestyle that it scared me straight, so to speak.   I think my "fling" with exotic latino males is done :)  The accents WERE really cool, though ... sigh.

So... I've made a turnaround.  Katie and I will be going back to church.  I've started reading the Bible.  I'm recentering myself in a healthy direction and I feel SO relieved.  The craziness was fun and exciting, but I liked how Doug - yes, my ex-husband - put it.  "Stop going after opposites and people who fill the far edges of who you are"

That rings SO true.  The parts of Doug and Sean and Ricardo that I found exciting or exotic helped fill this outer-fringe desire for excitement and non-normalcy (that's worded really poorly but I hope it makes sense).  I fear being with someone "too" normal because although it sounds really safe and reliable .. it also sounds dull after a few years.  But someone more like me - with a solid core that is good, loving, and kind - with some flashy quirks to keep things interesting - now THAT would rock.

I just may have found him :)  It's very early yet, but the initial signs are stupendous - not just good, STUPENDOUS.  We will meet face to face for the first time next month.  It's squee-alicous!

So how YOU doin?